Surrounded By Demons (Lost Cuts Vol. 1)

by Tori Fallis

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about

So yeah, here's that "weirdest fusion of Ride and The Verve you can think of" I mentioned in the Bandcamp description for Still People in Moving Images, all bundled up in a massive 42-track collection of scraps and experiments from before that album's time.

A good chunk of these songs come from a much earlier time in my life when I drew more inspiration from bands like Coldplay, Radiohead, The Verve, Oasis, Jeff Buckley, REM, The Smiths, My Bloody Valentine, Slowdive, Ride, Weezer, Jimmy Eat World, Interpol, Counting Crows and Third Eye Blind; basically a more deconstructed and simplified version of the "slowgazing" sound you hear on Still People. A lot of the chord progressions from the first twenty or so tracks were directly inspired by those from Coldplay's first album, "Parachutes", the record that inspired me to pursue music as a profession.

Now, of course, this isn't everything I've recorded from 2011 to 2014; most of the songs I wrote during that timespan have never been recorded, or, in some cases, even physically played on a guitar or piano. The ones that were recorded have never been finished (with the exception of "Fitzgerald" and "Give Me Your Love"), and having lost the GarageBand files for most of them ("January" from Still People suffered the same fate at one point), I, for better or for worse, have no means of doing so.

I've also decided to release this compilation album exclusively on Bandcamp; I won't allow it to be featured anywhere else for the time being, because honestly, why waste the time? Especially when I don't even like most of the content on this record. Totally not worth the time to go through all of that just for mediocrity. In my opinion, atleast.

Merry fucking Christmas.

~TF <3

credits

released December 7, 2016

Tori Fallis - Vocals, keys, lead guitar, rhythm guitar, bass guitar, drums, percussion, orchestra (live drums on "Peeking Into Hotel Rooms" and "Breathe Slowly")

Dedicated to the memory of Milo Lee.

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Track Name: New Friend
I've got a new friend, she sleeps on my bed
She wears my jackets, she ruins couches
She marks me with the pens in her sleeves
She's got a stuffy nose, scrapped knees, blood on her jeans

She flips her hair to the wrong side of her head
She bites her fingers, lives in her pockets
I've got this terrible cold coming on, clear my throat
Now hold on while I pull myself back up from hell
Track Name: Backs to the Wall
We've got our backs to the wall
And it's against it I fall
The table's taking it's turn
Your horses crash and then burn

Still unsure of the hurt

We broke our backs last night
But we're still standing up right
I never want it to end
Only want to make amends

Still unsure if it hurts
Track Name: Good Morning LA
I woke up with the daughter
I say good morning to LA
Driving down cardboard streets at 6AM
I feel like I am floating in space

(?) the city ghost
the (?), they are turning away
Layla, you are my porno
A vaccine for the reason not to stay

I woke up with the daughter
I say good morning to L.A.
Layla, you are my porno
Please just turn away
Track Name: Water
[Unfinished verse]

Jump in the water; I wanna sit right there and
Stare at the water; come with me baby, and we'll
Swim in the water, and I won't let you leave
Until I keep running in circles and circles and...

[Unfinished verse]

Jump in the water; I wanna sit right there and
Stare at the water; come with me baby, and we'll
Swim in the water, and I won't let you leave
Until I keep running in circles and circles and...

Jump in the water; I wanna sit right there and
Stare at the water; come with me baby, and we'll
Swim in the water, and I won't let you leave
Until I keep running in circles and circles and...

Treading on the water, and I will surely drown
If I don't see tomorrow, the only thing I want is
Misery and sorrow, and to not let you leave
Until I keep running in circles and circles and...
Track Name: The Warren
Unfinished rough draft from my memory:

"Everyone is born with a desire to please
But not everyone can [can't remember]"
I don't believe in rockstars
[can't remember the rest haha]"
Track Name: Falling in a Dream
Unfinished rough draft from my notebook:

"I woke up in a cold bed
Anxious of shivering blues inside of my head
Gliding down the hallway as my heavy clothes dragged on
And before anyone could even notice, I was gone

I look up into the waking sky
Behind the clouds, the moon was looking into my eyes
Suddenly I felt a tingling in my toes
As I walked on, my demons following me everywhere I would go

I lifelessly drifted along the empty road
Completely unsure of how the day would unfold
Suddenly I was lifted off my feet
As I woke from another sleepless dream

Floating away, floating away, floating away, floating away
Floating away across the city
Up from the bay and into the grey morning sky

As I wake up, like falling in a dream
Like falling in a dream, like falling in a dream

I've got to get away from here, get out somehow
Leave all of my friends behind and get out of this town
Fuck you all and goodnight to my sweet morning blues
No one ever cared, no one ever loved me, I've got nothing to lose".
Track Name: Fitzgerald
Meet me by my doorstep and take off your coat
I know it's still winter, but summer shouldn't come
Honey, yes, it's true, you've found someone to hold
But still, I hold onto everything about you I love

Open up your lips, dear, you haven't talked in weeks
I've been feeding off your silence so long, it makes me weep
When everybody wants to light your cigarette
I wish you would come down now and pull me out of bed

"Nothing is the end of the world" you said...
"Nothing is the end of the world" you said...

I'll throw away emotion to have you in my grasp
Staying up all night for days, just pulling out the past
When I drive uptown, I wonder where you'll be
When everybody loves you, I wish that you loved me
Track Name: Somehow
Somehow a rim is forming on the tip of a wearing glass
The same way a person changes for the worst, yet remains last
In a line of people claiming to have become stronger
But a disillusionment only delays it for longer

Somehow a color changes the way our eyes tell us everything
From the pictures you take of yourself to the way we make ends meet
But somewhere along the lines, you tried to teach me the letters
But I've been in hell for longer, and I know better
Track Name: Destination (Whatever You Want to Know)
What is it you're searching for?
What's your current destination?
Whatever you want to know
I will give you information

"Shut your face, you're such a bore"
You say to me as I create
A pleasant argument
In an anxious situation

Sail with me across the globe
And I'll find you a destination
And we can hold each other
Until everything is faded
Track Name: The Tallest Girl on Earth
I once met the tallest girl on Earth
She towered at twelve feet tall since the day of her birth
One day, she met a boy who was just as tall
And he crushed into the ground 'til she was nothing at all

The tallest girl on Earth once said to me:
"If you never ask, then you'll never be deceived"

The tallest girl on Earth once said to me:
"If you never ask, then you'll never be deceived"
Track Name: Swept Sleepy
Unfinished rough draft from my notebook:

"I was swept off my feet
Watching my lover sleep
A constellation carrying me like a giant hand
From a giant made of stars, swept up from sand
Your eyes are my videotape, flying towards the sea
Am I really as tired as I should be?

It's a lovely garden I play my piano in
The sun is shining brighter than heaven
A ghost is knocking on my door
Am I really as tired as before?

It's your bedtime now, get some rest"
Track Name: Polytheum
Unfinished rough draft from my notebook:

"Polytheum, you're driving me out of control again
I'm sorry I wanted to go to school today
Lying down, blurry faces leaking all around
People crying on TV all the time
Driving out of the city and nobody seems to notice
No one I know really seems to care
Everything seems a little greyer as I walk down an empty road"
Track Name: Breathe Slowly
Breathe slowly with me as we spin on our feet
And the ashes and screams fill the air
"How can this be?" becomes a symphony
To the beat of a rocking chair

Breathe slowly with me as we spin on our feet
And the ashes and screams fill the air
"How can this be?" becomes a symphony
To the beat of a rocking chair
Track Name: Give Me Your Love
I was up late last night, wondering about who I am
It never seemed so far
I walked outside this morning holding a gun and a locket
Rusted and shaped like a heart

I never noticed the way the clouds move in unison
As you tease the sky
I never thought much of it until I noticed the ground
Falling out from everyone in line

I made it home late last night, the rain was my only friend
As it washed away
Everyone that I knew and loved, for better or for worse
Yet, you still remain

And I will wait for you at the station, holding a pistol and a postcard
As the sun grows cold
So kiss me goodnight and embrace me with 2000000 limbs
Before I start to grow too old

Give me your love
Give me your love
Give me your love
Give me your love
Give me your love